I'm sorry..

I'm so sorry Athena,
for not always being there for you,
for not always giving you my arms,
for not always cuddlying you everynight,
When I said that you are my reason of being,
Never in my mind that I blame you,
Never in my mind that I shame on you,
Never in my mind that I meant to hurt you,
But what was done in real life cant always be explained,
For you are always my reason of being,
the reason I'm living and working so hard,
the reason that I'm staying late at night,
I am to you a mum,
but you will know that I need to be
a sister,
a daughter,
and at the same time a very supportive wife.
And when I thought life was being hard on me,
I thought of your smile... and how you make my life worthwhile...
to see you smile, each and every day...
You are my reason of being, trying to be a very good person to everyone,
being a better person for everyone..
so that everyone will be nice to you,
being a better someone,
so that karma will be nice to you,
you are my only reason left to come home,
being a good daughter,
so that life ease its way to yours,
being a good sister,
so that everyone being so helpful to you,
being a good wife,
so that you will have a good life... a perfect life that I've dreamt of...
am not being a perfect mum cause I know I will dissapoint you one day,
but I will try to be there for you, as much as I could..
beyond all what people said,
Only God who knows how I feel inside..
how I live and survive each day,
just to see you smile.
and kiss you good night.


and everynight,

I'm sorry Athena... for leaving you everymorning...